I am so much more selfish than I ever thought I could admit. I'm crying today...grieving tears from missing that outing with a lovely, coffee with a witch, my garden, netflix on demand, hours with nothing to do and a convertible to do it in, long showers followed by naps, hikes before the sun gets too hot, spontaneous trips to swimming holes, my fridge full of yummy fresh groceries, my big cloud of a bed.
Me, the traveller, the gypsy hearted hippie...missing my things...and doing the tears of grief thing while my momma, one mile down the road, needs 24 hour care for the next month and cries real tears of physical pain.
So. Selfish.
And so lucky to have a mom.
And so lucky to have a life worth missing.
And still crying.
Geez.
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you are allowed to love your mother
ReplyDeleteand miss your things at the same time.
does not make you selfish or a bad person.
only makes you human.
be gentle
sweet one,
mccabe xxx
my lovely one♥
ReplyDeletei have been trying,
with all that is within me,
to empty my tears,
to wash away the grief,
to understand the void,
to quiet the sighs,
to not feel so needy,
to find the internal bliss that fills my soul
with beautiful sparkly radiance♥
am i feeling sorry for myself?
am i releasing and letting go
and just unfamiliar with the cleansing and
purging of crap
that i feel like i am a stranger
in a strange land?
i am trying to embrace this new place
and
...just be
…right here
....right now.
i want to celebrate these tears,
knowing they are serving me and healing my
soul♥
i want to embrace the journey with reckless
abandon!
i also want to be beyond this
to play and giggle and shine
and seek out planned mischief
as well as unplanned adventures!!
i am looking forward to
river rituals
heart talks
crafting magic
fairy dancing
beach walks
pirate treasures
free hugs
making our lists
and experiencing some of it....
together♥
i am thankful for you♥
my warrior friend
so full of love♥
and beauty
and light♥
and gorgeous colors
that shine so bright and free!
and
for these little "things"
that seem like big things
that is causing my soul
to grow and bloom♥
♥ you always
yessssssssssss! post this somewhere and print it BIG! remember every moment of every day that this writer of beauty~full life words is YOU! growth is painful and you are right where you are meant to be doing just what you are meant to be doing. you humble me with your sharing, im blessed to be part of your world. :)
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